Life can change in a single minute. One moment everything feels normal, and the next you are standing in fear, uncertainty, and complete helplessness. A few weeks ago, we found ourselves there.
There was fear I had never felt before—the kind that grips your chest and leaves you feeling completely out of control. And maybe that’s exactly where the truth begins: we were never in control to begin with.
We spend so much of our lives trying to hold everything together, trying to plan, protect, and predict. But moments like these strip all of that away. They bring us face to face with our limits. And sometimes, that fear creeps in slowly—quietly—especially when you’re far from home, in a place like Uganda, where resources are limited and help feels miles away.
And in that place, we surrendered.
Not because it was easy. Not because we understood. But because there was nothing else we could do. We let go of the why, the fear, the need to control the outcome—and placed everything into God’s hands.
Because here is the truth: God was already there. He already knew the outcome. Nothing that happened surprised Him. While we were overwhelmed by the moment, He was not. He was present, steady, and working through every second of it.
It reminded me of Job. He lost everything, faced suffering that made no sense, and still came to a place of surrender. Not because he had answers, but because he trusted the One who did. As Job said in Job 1:21, “The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.” That is exactly the heart we needed in that moment—blessing God even when the fear was real and the future uncertain.
That’s the place we were brought to. Not understanding—but trusting.
And in that surrender, we saw God move.
He gave strength where there should have been weakness.
He placed the right people at the right time.
He carried us through something that could have ended very differently.
It taught us to stop asking, “Why is this happening?” and instead ask, “What is God showing me?”
What is He exposing in my heart?
What is He teaching me through this?
Because hardship has a way of revealing what really matters. It draws us closer to Him, if we let it.
And maybe one of the hardest, yet most beautiful truths is this: no matter what we go through, God still calls us back to the place He has for us. The calling doesn’t disappear because life got hard. The purpose doesn’t fade because fear stepped in.
But it didn’t just bring survival—it brought clarity.
We questioned, we felt the weight of it all—but in the end, we knew: we are called to go back to Uganda. Not because it’s easy. Not because it’s safe. But because that is where the Lord has placed us.
Two days ago, when we came back to Uganda, we didn’t really know how we felt. Our heads were full of shock and stress—we had left in such a hurry, carrying the weight of everything that had happened. Fear, exhaustion, and uncertainty followed us, like a shadow we couldn’t shake. But underneath it all, deep down, we knew we had to keep going. And now, as I write this, there’s a peace I can’t fully explain—the kind of calm that only God can give, the peace that steadies your heart and brings clarity when everything feels messy. It’s the kind of peace anyone can know when they stop trying to hold it all together and truly surrender their fear to Him.
God doesn’t promise a life without storms. But He promises to be in them. And more than that—He already knows how they end.
So when life shakes you, when fear creeps in, when everything feels out of control—remember:
you were never meant to carry it alone.
Surrender. Trust. Listen.
Because even in the chaos, God is already there…
and He already knows the ending.
With Love from Lusanja